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ill be very honest with you
i find barren white bedrooms quite comfortable
i got up 2day cz i was lying in bed and then i had sleep paralysis of my ex
    walking into my bedroom
i think i have a lot more stuff in here than youre imagining
i still have that book of yours
the shit in this book gotta be some of my favorite stuff ive read in a while
i think if you take ‘beauty is a virtue’ to be the message of that book you
    need to have your head caved out and used as a cup or something
can i come pinch another book from you pls
could i borrow your hairdryer before i sleep so that my hair is not wet on
    the pillow
do any of you guys have juice i can steal >.<
you should steal everything
got a chicken kebab and ate it for dinner
its crazy that kebabs are still technically the highest healing food in the
    game
one time i threw a grape so high and caught it in my mouth and ive never
    been that cool again since
one time my friend handed me a rollie and i started crying because i
    thought that shit was so beautiful
one time i had an elderly guy come up to me and just ask me for money
    because hed already spent his entire pension that week
too manyold people who fking love smoking cigs bra like you are going to
    die very soon
some old ppl r weeird
getting hit on by 29 year old man
theres no room in me for a party tonight
nd i smoked weed so sorry if i come off as unusual
and ill smoke with you tonight if you will with me
ill bring my weed and we can smoke in your roomington
we can just smoked weed and eat bbq
miss nicotine already
that took some serious business to pull off
every day i want to get addicted to nicotine again but i have to be strong
reaching the point in life where buddhism feels necessary
ehsy fof upi gius tjoml
im lazy about everything i do
我lazy
but cooking is so fun these days
the shit you eat is like level 100 evil white people food
i want to go to the kitchen and cook some fish
u shd know i often make sandwiches which are big and greedy
u guyz wanna go eat something ohoho ?!
okayy im delivering drugs pornography and firearms too is that okay
i was pulling your leg
i dont want to do that at all
u wanna lie down and relax and drink these cold drinks of mine
honestly there’s a lot of stuff you can do w a friend
nice
It’s nice.
wait today my friend gifted me a shirt that says ‘new window moment” on it
and fun fact the reason that the default set of emojis on windows 10 doesnt
    have visual designs for flags is because they didnt want to include the
    flag of palestine
ima kill bill gates
i will kill u bro
die bro
die bra
die bru
u gotta die
yo you gotta die bra😭😭😭
today
u gotta get lobotomised or some shit
speaking of which look what was at unity yesterday
just bought sandwich ingredients too
bought some peroni beer today btw
i buy hella oats
white tea needles, green tea leaves, jasmine tea pearls
drinking rosÉ i bought for equ 4 quid
i b buying the 8-12 dollar cleanskins n drinking them in 1 go
imma buy some chamomile too
i wanted to buy clarice lispectors complete stories though
who cares you know
she’s the one who wrote an entire ass 240 page novel about a woman
    watching a cockroach die
that’s a fine way to know about an author
i wanted to look into it to get inspiration but it was too frightening
your teeth are big and i’m scared you’ll bite my nose off
you inspire me bro and i love you #truth
i used to love people so much
but now i get sick as a sailor
i haven’t heard of love medicine
neway ima snooze fr bra love u
luv U to the moon and back again 1000000000 times
sometimes you just have to put your thoughts to words, even though they’re
    unimportant
a window into my little shrivelled heart
its pretty cool i wouldnt want any crows to snatch it
i hallucinate bicycles all the time its really weird
ive always felt weird about everything
wait isnt this face im making here way too weird
but this is also weird right
and look at this
everything about it
i just really wanna play mario party
we should make a song
oh.. is that weird too....
im sorry but i think i have couvid right now
its weird that when u go to bed your brains like what if nukes dropped
    everywhere lets carve out a vivid scenario and have you endure it
i had a dream which did not start here but this is all i remember: i was at a
    party or maybe like an outdoor sports game, and my highschool
    french teacher was leaving and i decided to walk with her. she told me
    about children who were being abducted by aliens, and then she
    requested i do something for her. she gave me a key and asked me to
    get inside a mailbox and wait. every time a letter was deposited into
    the mail box i was to turn on a torch and check whether it was in an
    unmarked blue envelope. if it was, then i should bring it to her and
    she’d give me $2000, and i could repeat this as many times as i’d like.
    i agreed and she went away, but i realised i couldn’t figure out how to
    get into the mailbox properly. there was so much stuff i had to
    balance on my head as i was entering for some reason. so i waited
    near the mailbox to see if anyone would put in a blue envelope, and
    someone did, but they saw me watching them put it in, and they
    chased me. and then i woke up because i needed to pee!
i often dream in french even though i cant speak it so basically i just assume
    my brain is making up bullshit
mon accent c’est pas. c’est pas bien ou bon ou ou fucking synonym for bon
    mais j’essaye i don’t even think this is a phrase j’essaye mon meilleur
pcq chuis pas francais
im in the hospital because im french
they love using slimy gels of various temperatures and consistencies at
    those hospitals
chill slime 🔥🔥🔥🔥
just lying here chilling
so windy tonight but im cosy in my bed
i shld probably go2 bed..
yeah i’m going to bed bruh everything scares me
my room is silent youd love it here

each line in this poem is a message i have sent to someone. the rules i set for myself were:
1) i may not use two messages sent to the same person in a row.
2) i may not modify the messages in any way. (this was more to make the process of editing a lot easier. but it also makes the poem a lot more authentic in my opinion, if a little clunky.)
3) i must honestly attempt to portray who i am.